Nick Cervasio commited suicide friday night... this whole week has been horrible .. there is a million other words to explain it.. but it was horrible.. viewing, funeral, burial, luncheon, making up school work... everything that comes along with a death.. oh i almost forgot.. CRYING .. this is affecting me more than I ever thought it would.. I miss him.. and I dont think he would have done it if he saw us all like this..

....saddest update ever

Boring stuff....
Name: Val
Age: 15
Grade: 9th
School: Poquessing middle
place you were born: Phila
place where you live now: Feastervilleee

Friends....
if you had to put your self in a social group what would it be? well known

do you think your already in that group? yea
do you conisder yourself to be popular? yea
who are your best friends? I have alot of them
do you hang out with more guys or girls? girls but guys are def. funner
do your parents like your frineds? uh huh
can any of your friends drive? yes
are you allowed to drive with them? no lol

Boyfriend/Girlfriend....
do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?no
If no, when did you have your last boyfriend/girlfriend? uhm beginning of the year. it was so dumb
why did you break up? it was pointless
when did you break up? uh? lol I forget the month
how long were you together? a week or two?
do you still like them? no
are you still frineds? kinda i guess! can we get off this topic! lol
did they buy anything for you? no
do you think you'll get back together with them? no
what was the funnest thing you did with them? nothing

favorite......
CD? a mix someone made me
kind of music? ALL KINDS
color? blue
store? target
singer?JoJo
musical group?Dashboard Confessional
TV show?American Idol
Movie? Father of the bride// Notebook!! haha
Place to hang out? my room
person to talk to on the phone? probably Damian.. hes fun..
person to talk to on-line? thats a hard one kinda
person to get e-mails from? don't get e-mails lol

Would you ever...
bungee jump? yes
sky dive? no.. not unless I was pushed off
run around naked? it depends where ha
go whitewater rafting? yea
kiss a complete stranger? lol.
make out with your cousin for $100? THATS SICK!
get something besides your ears peirced? yes
get a tattoo? yes
drive drunk? no
play strip poker? uhm no because I suck at poker
go skinny dipping? yes I allready have

Family.....
do you live w/ both your parents? yes
any brothers or sisters? yes
are you closer to your mom or dad? thats hard to say.. whatever mood im in
who's the coolest person in your whole family?  my dog!
who are you closest with in your whole family? my dog
where does most of your family live?pa
do you get along with everyone?no

Currently Playing The 80's 14 Greatest Hits By Love Shack The B-52s, Human Human League, Kokomo The Beach Boys, Karma Chameleon Culture Club, Girls Just Want To Have Fun Cyndi Lauper, Roll With It Steve Winwood, The Tide is High Blondie, Stray Cat Strut Stray Cats, Caribbean Queen Billy Ocean, Love is a Battlefield Pat Benatar . . . . more see related

Love is a battlefield

We are young
Heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no on can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long
Both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

You're beggin' me to go, you're makin' me stay
Why do you hurt me so bad
It would help me to know
Do I stand in your way, or am I the best thing you've had
Believe me, believe me, I can't tell you why
But I'm trapped by your love and I'm chained to your side

We are young
Heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demads
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no once can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long
Both of us knowing
Love is a battlefiled

We're losing control
Will you turn me away or touch me deep inside
And before this gets old, will it still feel the same
There's no way this will die
But if we get much closer, I could lose control
And if your heart surrenders, you'll need me to hold

We are young
Heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no one can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long
Both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

We are young
Heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no one can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long
Both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

amazing song

 tell her you think shes amazing. tell her why you think shes so amazing. play with her hair. talk to her in movie theaters. snuggle, hold her hand, and lightly kiss her. pick her up and pretend youre going to throw her in the river; she'll scream and fight you but secretly, she'll love it. hold her hand and walk. hold her hand and run. just hold her hand. pick flowers from other peoples yards and give them to her. tell her she looks beautiful .introduce her to your friends as "the most amazing girl i know''. sit in the park and talk to her. take her to the library, ice skating, playgrounds, and coffee shops. tell her lame jokes. tell her stupid jokes...whatever it takes to make her laugh. write poems about her. walk with her, even if its just around the block. throw pebbles at her window at night. surprise her. do things that make her smile, make her laugh, and make her want to kiss you right on the face. be spontaneous. when she starts yelling at you, tell her you love her. give her back rubs. play mud football with her. play in the snow with her. let her fall asleep in your arms. call her... even if its just to say hi. call her back if she calls you. jump on the bed with her. sing to her, no matter how bad you are. carve your names into a tree. get her mad, then kiss her. push her on swings. give her piggy-back rides. stay up with her all night. leave her little unexpected notes.. on the car, or on her door, or in her locker saying how much she means to you. take her to romantic places and lay out blankets to look at the stars. make up nicknames for eachother. show up at her school or class unexpectedly. send flowers and dorky notes that only you two understand. teach her guitar. lend her your cds. make her cds of songs that remind you of her. write her letters. if she asks you to go to a concert with her, go, even if it means a 5 hour car trip. go out on a road trip even if theres no destination or you cant be gone long.  listen to her favorite songs. when shes sad or sick, hang out with her or stay on the phone with her, even if shes not saying anything. buy her ice cream. let her take all the pictures of you she wants. look into her eyes. slow dance with her, even if the music is fast. . remember dates.. even ones like your first kiss or date and surprise her on the anniversary. kiss her in the rain. kiss her in the snow... kiss her when she least expects it. when you fall in love with her, tell her.

This is what I expect...If you want it,. Come and get it.